Saturday Thinking

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It’s Saturday. I' m sitting in the tram, driving home and wondering if it was a good idea to make this trip to town. To buy the last things I need for work? To join this crowd which is in the stress for Christmas shopping or whatever shopping they do and sit with them in the crowded tram? And I don’t like the crowd, but I m happy I finished the stuff I needed to finish. Now I have everything and I can shutdown, logoff.

Now those are two terms which are used more for technical equipment like for my laptop then for me and my brain. But please tell me, how can I shutdown my brain, where is this magic button? 

Sometimes my brain fools me; I think: Now see I can shutdown. I stoped thinking and I am here and no what, when, where, I have to do this or think of this, that, there. I am. But the very same moment, when I continue the thinking: I didn’t manage to shutdown. I mean even when you sleep your brain is working. They say the sleep is even the busiest time for the brain. A very clever brain we have. Then when it does the most work, we think we are only sleeping.

But the more I think of this wish, to shutdown, to logoff. I don’t want to do it anymore. I consider that the brain needs to be working, otherwise. – Otherwise everything would stop. No heartbeat. No breathing. No Life!

and I so want to live!! so no shutdown for me. I do not even consider it anymore

Long live life :) 

Ailena